Chocolate

For some strange reason I've been craving for these things for quite some time now but due to some monetary problems I am yet to acquire a chocolate bar.

I'm thinking about posting something along the lines of "Will spend spend time with people for chocolate" on our freedom board.

What do you think, Mitsu?

Driver's License

So I got my driver's license today....

And I'm the only one who actually has class to attend tomorrow morning... Perhaps my parents would allow me to take a car on my own without overly worrying about anything...

*adjusts glasses*

We'll see what happens.

A Busy Day

It's roughly 5 in the afternoon right now and I find myself still in the confines of the university at this time of the day. My reason for staying here is simple: I still have to attend to my club session this evening at 6:30.

I was just given my allowance for today, and I only had two classes to attend; my 7:30-9, and 9-10:30. I had originally thought I had nothing more to do afterwards, but realized that I had to attend a group session on my Saturday insertions to a particular area at 3 in the afternoon. With much time to spare, I decided to inform Syusuke about this and we agreed to meet up for lunch during his break before his Advertising class.

During my walk to Seishun, I was uniquely surprised to already see him waiting for me, sitting down on one of the benches when I walked up to him. After realizing that he had left me a few messages on my phone during my walk, we headed off to our eating place.

Having much time to spend while we were there, Syusuke and I decided to discuss a few things about our various roleplays; finalizing ideas and throwing together a few scenes that would entertain us both, as well as our readers.

We ended up walking back to Seishun and parted ways before I returned to my own university to spend some time back here in the open lab until 3 in the afternoon where I met with my groupmates to discuss our insertions.

And now I've returned once again here to pass the time before I head off to the tennis courts. I'm glad to see that the weather looks good for an evening session.

There won't be any classes for me tomorrow, but my day is still unplanned for the most part. It actually depends on my father's schedule. Hopefully I'll be able to get my license, so... fingers crossed?

*shrugs*

Number 10

Syusuke forgot something very important in that list of his.

10. You have to be Fuji Syusuke.

That is all.

*bows*

9 Things to remember if you want to date Tezuka Kunimitsu

Here's the list that some people are asking for...and no..don't ask me to elaborate.

1. You have to understand that he isn't perfect.
2. You have to realize that he isn't a fairytale character that will just sweep you off your feet as well.
3. You have to be comfortable with lengthy silences.
4. Don't expect too much mushyness
5. Don't demand for them either.
6. Tennis is something that you will NEVER get out of his system
7. If you don't know what he's talking about it would be better if you look it up than just sit there and wait for him to tell you what it is.
8. In times of trouble, take the initiative to talk. Don't expect him to just notice that there's something wrong
9. Learn a sport or two. While it's nice to let him teach you, it's much better to actually play against/with him it gives you "brownie points".

-^____^-

"Somethin' in your eyes, makes me wanna lose myself
Makes me wanna lose myself, in your arms
There's somethin' in your voice, makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts, the rest of my life

If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I've been so alone
And if you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

A window breaks, down a long, dark street
And a siren wails in the night
But I'm alright, 'cause I have you here with me
And I can almost see, through the dark there is light

Well, if you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I've waited for your touch
And if you knew how happy you are making me
I never thought that I'd love anyone so much

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way the back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong"

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Excuse the mushyness that this post implies.

Mitsu...seems like I have found another song that says all that I want to tell you.

Quoting Junjou

I was watching some Junjou Romantica (well, Egoist to be more precise) this morning and one line in particular clenched at my heart.

.......Syusuke...

These are a few of the many lines I want to borrow from this anime that I want to express wholeheartedly to you....

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"But I can tell you one thing - there's no one in this world I could ever love more than I love you." (anime) - Nowaki to Hiroki, episode 6

"But I know that there's no one that I'll love more than you, Hiro-san." (manga) - Nowaki to Hiroki, Vol. 2 Ch 002, pg 103

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"Is there a limit to how much you can love somebody? No matter how much I hurt him and get hurt by him, I find myself, far from hating him, actually hoping that those wounds will scar, like burns... because then you can never forget me. And you will never, ever be able to leave my side. Loving someone so madly and helplessly like this... I will never love like this again." (anime) - Hiroki's thoughts, episode 6

"Are there any limits to the emotion called 'Love'? Hurting others... and even getting hurt yourself... Rather than succumbing to hatred... It's better yet to... leave a scar much like a burn mark. That way you'll never be able to forget me. Go live merciless of the strength to tear yourself away from me. Loving someone so much... just so much... Never again will I ever experience this kind of love." (manga) - Hiroki's thoughts, Vol. 2 Ch 002, pgs 109, 110 and 111

That's great!

And just so you know, it was supposed to be Momo that I'll be watching the movie with.

Unfortunately, he had informed me that he caught a cold and is now feeling out of it so...

^_________^;;

I guess I'll be watching on my own tomorrow.

Another Saturday

Syusuke and I managed to spend another Saturday afternoon in each other's company. I had originally intended for us to play some badminton together, but there were a few minor setbacks that made me think of rescheduling it to next weekend instead.

I'm thankful that we managed to meet up quite a number of times this past week, though I do regret not being able to watch a particular movie that he's required to watch by Tuesday. I believe he'll be watching it on Monday with a friend of his, if I recall.

Spending an afternoon playing with the Wii was a nice way to pass the time, I believe. I never realized how competetive my boyfriend can be when it comes to Wii Bowling. *shrugs*

Because our landline wasn't working, we had to go to the gate of my subdivision to get a taxi for Syusuke, so I suggested that I take one of the cars so I could practice driving a bit more. Upon Syusuke's suggestion, I took a drive around before finally parking it and accompanying him to hail a taxi, which we found pretty quickly.

I'll be getting my driver's license this Friday for sure. I actually might already have an opportunity to bring Syusuke home myself earlier than I expect.

Fatigue

*flexes fingers of left hand*

Ow...

I'm beginning to think how much of a bad idea it is combining badminton and tennis. I may have just gotten used to the weight of a badminton racket to be overwhelmed with the sudden weight of the tennis racket last night. And I'll have them both on Monday again. What a joy that will be (*sarcasm intended*).

-_____-

That aside... I have a free cut from my 2:30 class, so now I'm contemplating what to do until I attend yet another GA for one of my school organizations.

Well... to be honest, I was hoping to meet with Syusuke, but he overworked himself late into the night last night so I understand his reasons for declining.

I hope you get your fatigue back up, Syusuke. We may be needing it tomorrow. Yes, you and I both.

Announcement

As I keep reminding you time and again, I don't think there's much need for you to get completely jealous over things, Syusuke. It's a waste sometimes. But that out of the way, I think it's about time I write a decent blog entry in this blog of ours. Just a short one to save everyone the trouble.

So I stopped writing journal entries for the time being (on Things I Want to Know)... simply because I honestly find no more use to type up a precariously long entry about a certain event when I can do just the same here with a bit more discretion that I'd very much appreciate.

Despite the workload in university, I think I'd like to dedicate some time with keeping up with said schoolwork, and just spend some time chatting with Syusuke and read that manga I've become so intrigued by (Junjou Romantica). If possible, scheduling some possible afternoons to spend with him is a plus, since the org I'm in is constantly asking me to get involved, and the tennis club is not making things any easier with the planning.

I'll have to get used to a Monday and Thursday meeting with said club. I haven't even had the chance to take out my tennis racket and hit a few balls around on the court these days thanks to the unpredictable weather. I would hope Thursday comes to be a better evening for play. For now, I'll make do with looking forward to meeting with Syusuke after his Advertising class.

Jealousy

A few people might not know about it yet, but I'm a person who can easily get jealous over the simplest things, be it trivial or insignificant.

^_____________^#

I have no idea why, though...

But anyway, yes I am currently jealous over something/someone but I'll leave people to figure it out.

And no...

No clues this time.

Sleep

Today, I spent most of my time sleeping.

Waking up at around 12 in the afternoon I joined my family to eat lunch and in a few minutes time after that I fell asleep again and woke up at around 6...

From that hour onwards I was as awake as a person would be in the day time.

Unfortunately I will have to suffer this insomnia phase alone.

I hate your internet, Mitsu...almost as much as I hate mine.

Almost a week

If memory serves me correctly.... My beloved Syusuke and I haven't seen each other since last Saturday when he came over to the house after his class. We spent some good time together, and I was only more than happy in being able to spend time with him.

As the week progressed this time around, there wasn't a minute that when I was alone I wouldn't be thinking of him... Of how I missed to just hold his hand... stroke his hair... and generally just be able to touch him...

And whether or not I took it upon myself to be reading the manga he referred me to - to which I read it in my spare time when I'm able to - it only reminds me of how much I want to be with him; to see his face and to hold him.

Tomorrow... he and I will see each other again. It's what I've been craving to do since the past week...

On Junjou Romantica

Syusuke...

I was debating whether to share this or not... But a blockmate of mine had a copy of the anime of Junjou Romantica... So I... borrowed it for a while. The opening song is quite......... interesting.

-/////////-

I'll leave you with the English translation.

Don’t let go of this hand, don’t let go
Because I’ll be by your side
No matter when, smile! Smile!
The flower will bloom

The flower you like the most has bloomed
The flower with a small thorn bloomed this morning
I wonder if I should protect that thorn
The lone strong flower resembles you

The gentleness becomes as painful as I know
Because you and the warmth of your falling tears know

I want to see you, I want to see you
If it gets lonely even when the two of us are together
Let’s hold hands until the loneliness disappears
Don’t let go of this hand, don’t let go
Because I will be by your side
No matter when, smile! Smile!
The flower will bloom

If you send a smile to a star somewhere
Just looking up at the sky makes me happy

Even trivial things become precious to me
Because the flower that is you bloomed in my heart

I want to see you, I want to see you
If it gets as lonely even when the two of us are together
Let’s hold hands until the loneliness disappears
Don’t let go of this hand, don’t let go
I will be by your side
No matter when, smile! You can cry, because
I’m with you

If there’s no water, it will wither, so
that thorn can’t protect anything at all
It’s the lone strong flower
The thorn doesn’t hurt, so don’t cry anymore

I won’t let go of this hand, Won’t let go
If it gets as lonely even when the two of us are together
Let’s hold hands until the loneliness disappears
Even if that small thorn hurts my hand

Walking in the Rain

I found myself doing it when I was walking down the street of my subdivision... It was just a light drizzle and I was nearly home... So I didn't think too much about it and pulled my umbrella from above me and let the soft raindrops reach me, allowing them to hit my face.

I was listening to some music off my iPod... And the song that was playing as I turned into my street was an English song... Savage Garden's 'Truly, Madly, Deeply' song. I believe I found myself singing along to it. And as I subconsciously thought about Syusuke... I started to tear up slightly.

Syusuke.

The ambience of the rain... and the message of the song I was listening to...

I don't want it to be a sign of any sort.

I want to spend the rest of forever with you by my side.

Always....

Out of Ideas

I should applaud you for finding a manga that actually captures the constant shift in our relationship, Syusuke. Even I was surprised when I read your blog entry.... And I can't help agreeing that in some ways, that particular manga is right on the money... for the relationship bit.

Moving on, I am finding difficulty with coming up with somethign new to write about for my latest journal. It's truly been a while and I am feeling quite irritated that I haven't been updating...

Any ideas?

My First actual blog entry~

First I would like to direct you to these two pages of the manga "Junjou Romantica".

In the First page there I'd like you to look at the last three panels and for the second page, the first two panels.

These parts of this certain chapter struck me so hard that it made me wake up in the middle of the night.

My intention was to read the chapter before I go to sleep, I thought it wouldn't be long until I gave up anyway since my eyes were closing and I was already feeling sleep slowly claim me. Yet, the moment that I read those lines I found my eyes snapping open and by brain fully alert and awake.

I read the lines again and again, realization sinking in at each turn.

"These were similar, if not the exact, same lines that my Kunimitsu told me a few months back"

It's such a great coincidence that the exact same name our antagonist had back then was "Takahiro", I guess.

But when I realized all this I went back a few pages and found myself a bit more shocked (and a bit creeped out) when I read the story behind the character Misaki, the one the other (Usagi) was hugging:

Takahiro (Misaki's brother) was talking to Usagi about how their parents died. It appears that Misaki has been blaming himself for their parents death.(Their parents died in a car crash because of over-speeding, Misaki blamed himself because previous to that he had asked his parents to hurry home.)

And then this exchange happens:



It revealed that the character was giving a front to everyone else. A front that crumbled down when he is in front of Usagi , as revealed in the previous chapters.

We're just the same...

That was the first thing that came to mind the moment that I read that certain page. I, just like Misaki, had learned to put up a front when dealing to harsh realities and seldom does it happen that people see through it...that was until a special someone came.

And throughout every hardship we have been through he has been like Usagi, never letting go...fighting on for what we have.

-^_____________^-

The mere thought of it all is making me quite giddy....

Long story short, This manga: "Junjou Romantica" has made me feel grateful toward my beloved once again. It also reminded me how much I love him despite the fact that my brain wasn't supposed to be able to proses anything more than 'zzzzzz'.

Yes, love is that powerful. *chuckle* It strikes subtly yet its effect is overwhelming.

Well, I guess I'm due to go to sleep now since it's already 1:21 in the morning.

Good Night all~

*cuddles pillow*

I agree with that.

Yes, please. Get a license as soon as you can.

It'll make some things easier for us since I don't think Yumiko-neesan has any intention of letting me use the car on my own.

Saa...I wonder why they still don't trust me driving skills...

On a random note..I haven't been posting anywhere, have I?

I should really do something about that. Especially for the blog we're required to have.

Do you think RPG is a good topic, Mitsu?

Driving

I really should find time to get my license already... It'll become tiresome to just go around the subdivision time and again...

*adjusts glasses*

Also... I shall direct you to a previous quote that I let slip last Wednesday: "I'm off balance again."

I'll leave the rest of our viewers to figure that out.

Ah yes...

That's quite true.

So that explains why I don't stray off in crowded places and other things.

*chuckle*

I can't imagine straying from you anyway, love.

For your information...

My 'Tezuka Zone' doesn't control your emotions towards me. It just doesn't allow you to stray away from amidst its radius. I'd be insulted if you thought it was the reason why you're with me....

So that explains it...

Now I know what to blame for my unexplainable attraction for you.

Tezuka zone, I see...

And here I was thinking that it was your charisma that was drawing me to you.

That....

...is overrated. Those animators obviously want to exaggerate more than they need to when it comes to my techniques.

*sighs*

And I'm surprised you didn't realize that you've been pulled into my 'Tezuka Zone' for nearly 8 months now, Syusuke.

O___O

You mean you don't care that you killed off those adorable dinosaurs?

unless....you're using your Tezuka zone for something else.

^______________^#

And...?

Are you quite sure I haven't already been harnessing it, Syusuke?

*raises an eyebrow*

Tsk Tsk Tsk....

This is one reason why you should learn to harness the power of "Tezuka Zone" a bit more, Kunimitsu.

I did think of it that way before..

^____________________________^

I'm just generally happy now that things have taken a turn for the better.

Now to find a way to turn the tables more often...

-///////////////////-

Syusuke...

Just so you know...

That ring I gave you... May have more symbolism than what I originally intended it to have... I hope that much is clear...

I'll always love you... and will stay with you.

Always.

Oh Kunimitsu... -^______^-

You don't have to ask that of me because no matter what happens I will always trust you.

And I will always always ALWAYS love you unconditionally. Though I may get mad over the silliest things sometimes, always bear in mind that I love you so so much.

You'll always be my adorable, huggable, lovable darling.

^________^

That won't happen

I wouldn't dream of getting rid of you, Syusuke. I may have made a few mistakes, but I know for a fact taht I won't be leaving you for as long as I care to.

I can only ask you to trust me.... as you always have.... to love me as much as you always have.

Here to stay

You'll be glad to hear that everything worked out in the end.

I came back as I promised, Kunimitsu. And this time I can proudly say that I'm here to stay until you decide that you want to get rid of me.

Still Waiting

I'll always be waiting, Syusuke.

I completely trust you... And I do hope you come back just as you promised you would.

I LOVE YOU. More than you ever know.

We'll grit our teeth and make our own futures happen.

About Today

So yes, I have to admit I had quite a crappy start to my day, but that date totally turned things around for me.

I had a great time with you, something we haven't done in a while, actually.

I wish we had more time to spend together, though.

I'm glad that you liked the outfit, I'm sure someone would be delighted to hear that too.

I'm also very thankful that you brought me home and shared a romantic moment with me under the rain.

Oh Look, Mitsu...we finally have our own rain scene.

^________________________________^

A Good Day

I seem to have lost track of the last time you and I had a proper date, Syusuke... But at least things worked well earlier today, wouldn't you agree? I had a grand time, though I must admit you looked stellar in your outfit.

*adjusts glasses*

I'll also thank you for allowing me to escort you home this time. I just want to personally make sure nothing bad happens, that's all...

I love you, and I look forward to spending time with you again real soon.