Perhaps Only to Me

I never want to make the mistake of letting go of your hand for even just a little bit again, Syusuke. Any shortcomings I may have made known were the cause of why I became so confused myself. But I'm heartily grateful that despite all that, you remained to believe firmly that we can make this our own.

As such, I don't think I can find any more reason to tell anybody else just how much you mean to me anymore. I love you relentlessly and will continue doing so until my dying day.

So let anyone who dares to intervene come. We will show to them that we can overcome absolutely any obstacle together, Syusuke.

I've come to a peace of mind and I can move on from the past, even if the progress will be a little slow. But rest assured, love... We won't have to see face of that cycle any longer. I'll personally see to that.

A post that makes no sense whatsoever.

I held on to you because I was so afraid that if I let go, I would hear something I would dread that would cause you to walk out of my life.

I love you so much Kunimitsu......and letting you go would kill me.

The mere thought of it was enough for me to break down and hold on to you helplessly, at a lost for anything else to say or think.

It became instinct, that time....to just reach out for you, to keep you beside me...with me.

I was desperate, I was confused...and most of all, I was afraid.

Kunimitsu...no words can explain how much I love you anymore.

I meant everything that I said earlier as I held on to you....

They can ask anything of me just....just as long as it's not to leave you...

Of course

Of course I'll be updating as well, Mitsu.

After all, I didn't put that teaser there for nothing

Update

So I decided to update my journal again (Things I Want to Know). Just a short entry this time around, but for sure when I have more time, I'll make more updates.

Syusuke, you'll be updating more as well, right?

At Ease

I enjoyed these past few days seeing you, Syusuke. I've been able to be a little more at ease about a few things.

I guess it's a good way to compensate for the next few Saturdays we'll be unable to meet, ne?

Hopefully my hand will stop swelling so I can hold a racket again by next week. Holding a ballpen without trouble would be nice, too. I have two midterms coming next week as well. Wish me luck.

Bad days

Yes, I've been having a lot of bad days lately.

Now I know they were meant to be bad days and not just coincidential bad days.

It's so hard when people you trust starts turning their backs on you.

Flares

Tempers can get the better of you when you let them. So the best way to handle them is by avoiding it. Cool yourself off and change the subject of conversation. It helps cut the tension amidst the group.

Will our regular plans continue, Syusuke? Or perhaps you'd like me to arrange a tennis session tomorrow afternoon?

Yes

I'd have to say that it holds some truth, those results are.

And Syusuke....

I'll be the first to say it lest I forget:

HAPPY 9TH MONTHSARY!

Personality Test Results

We have one of these ever school year and I'd like to share my results for this SY. Think it's accurate?

1. Concrete thinker/ Practical Thinker
2. Emotionally changeable/ Moody
3. Sensitive
4. Skeptical
5. Imaginative
6. Non-disclosing/ Tends to keep things to self
7. Apprehensive
8. Shy
9. Self Reliant
10. Tolerates Disorder

Ummm

White Chocolate would be nice, but I'll take whatever is available as long as it isn't dark.

Reply

>______>

Say so earlier... That way I can buy some in school to give it to you when we meet.

Sometime this week, then. Any particular chocolate you're looking for? Milk? White? Dark?

Asking

*clears throat*

While I'm not really that used to asking people for things that I crave...

*looks at you and smiles brightly*

Can you give me some chocolate, Kunimitsu?

Response

Of course that's not a good idea. I'm not allowing you to spend time with people for it when I can purchase some for you myself. Just ask.

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