^____^

I was beginning to worry that you weren't posting any more entries, Syusuke.

But it looks like I didn't have anything to worry about.

Aishiteru, Syusuke~

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(wow, you don't see me using that often here)

Oh Tezuka~~

Miiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiitsu~

Kuniiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiimiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiitsu~~~

Tezukaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~

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I love youuuuuuuu~~~

Always the Listener

So another semester's started. It won't be long 'til your birthday, and I hope I could please you with anything I may plan to give you. I just hope that you will come to enjoy your special day as you should be, Syusuke.

Since this journal of ours has been collecting dust from the last entries - the latest three belonging to me - I decided that now would be the perfect time to update, ne?

I just wanted to let you know that I am always, always willing to listen to your problems. I may not have said it very often, but I can always, always make time for you if I'm able to.

I don't want you thinking that I'm always unavailable to you; quite the contrary, I want you to know that I'm just here when you need me. Don't be afraid of telling me your troubles because I want to share what you feel, Syusuke.

Please remember that.

To See Each Other

Semester's practically over for the both of us....

And it wouldn't be long until I go on that trip to Bangkok as well with my family and relatives.

So until then, while you're still nearby, I guess I want to spend as much time as I can with you.

Everyday is not likely an understatement anymore; after all, we've been at it for a while and we're happily still seeing each other, ne?

To pursue to see each other despite the minor setbacks of colds and coughs, I guess, is amazing. And I wouldn't have it any other way.

And another thing...

In times like these, Syusuke... I can't help but want happiness for you. To provide it for you.

Compared to me, I'm well aware of the hardships you're going through. Even back then.

So every single time... I want to offer you that chance to be happy. To see a genuine smile on your face without having to worry about anything else. To just lose yourself in your company with me...

Sometimes I think I'm not doing a good job of it, but you always have your own unique way of telling me that I'm succeeding in that task.

I want to be the person who could always and will always make you happy no matter what...

That just seeing me... just being around me... and being by my side... is enough for that happiness to be felt.

"I'll be happy as long as you're happy. "

But I'm most happy when we can find happiness for both of us. Without regrets.

^________^

I'll love you forever, Syusuke.

And if I had a choice, I'd fervently long to be with you every waking moment of my life; to be in your arms and constantly remind you that as long as there's you in my life whom I could love with everything I am, then there isn't anything else I should trouble myself with.

I'm here for you. Always.

We have our little misunderstandings... But I want us to get through them without constantly feeling bad about what was said or done to the point of having to feign anger towards the other.

Optimism. Positivity. Honesty. Sincerity.

I know this sounds rather silly coming from me (especially the positivity part), but I'm sure we can avoid future problems that way. I know how much of a sincere person you are, Syusuke.

But I also know how possessive you sometimes are with me.... and I of you. The point of the matter is... let's be a little lax and don't pull on the leash too tight, okay? We might end up suffocating one another in the process.

................

I guess that's all I can squeeze out of me for tonight. It's close to midnight and I need to wake up early tomorrow. See you then. I love you.

I believe you

I always think that. I always do. And I'll have to agree and return that statement.

I love you, Syusuke. Very, very much.

No matter what happens, whatever the situation, I believe you.

Ne...

Kunimitsu...whatever will happen for the next few days, remember that I will always..ALWAYS love you, alright?

No matter what happens, we will always be together. As I've heard from somewhere, "There's no one other person that I will ever love more than I love you."

In These Times

Mitsu, even if it's just been a day since we saw each other I already miss you so much. Just like you...I've been craving for your company more and more each passing day.

If it's because of the flood and the storm, I'm not really sure. But whatever it is, I just want nothing more than to be with you.

I've gotten wind that I won't be able to go home for a few more weeks.

That and the fact that I have a few more requirements to finish for school.

It's infuriating, I tell you.

Mitsu...I love you so much..and I need you now more than ever.

Let's get through this, ne?

Time with Each Other

After the effects of the typhoon that plagued us, it's a relief to see you after so long, Syusuke.

Being able to just hold you so close to me...

It's something I've begun to crave for more often.

The fact that you were able to stay over here with me was relieving.

Amidst the rainfall that started up once again...

I only wish and pray that you stay safe...

I love you, Fuji Syusuke. So... so... so much.

Typhoons

It's unspeakable, all that happened last Saturday. I cannot begin to describe just how worried I was of you, Syusuke. Especially since you were stranded in Seishun for so many hours on your own.

At least now, things are slowly starting to come together, ne? I hope you continue to stay safe, especially now that you've reunited with your family.

I love you, Syusuke. And I only hope that you will find the strength from within to keep moving forward.

Visiting

Earlier this morning, I was watching a few videos I placed in my iPod. They just reminded me that I wanted time to fly by quicker so that I could see you.

I spent most of the afternoon in your company, staying by your side in hopes that you would get better, Syusuke. But even as I left your place in the late afternoon you were still feeling weak. I shall pray to Kami-sama that you will get better tomorrow.

I'd very much like to see you up and about again. In time for Saturday, most especially.

If my skills haven't abandoned me yet...

This would be a nice picture of what Kunimitsu has given me.

Yes, ladies and gentlemen. This is the actual ring that I have right now.

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Without anything much else to say...

I request that you do not judge me any different for being a simple person. I'm very sure that you very well haven't, Syusuke. And I'm thankful for that understanding alone.

While I don't openly admit my being romantic, cheesy or mushy and can't carry a decent impromptu speech without messing up once in a while... The least you should know is that I try. Any facade I previously presented is gone, and I would only like to be with you.


This is why I got those rings and presented them to you - in the most awkward manner, I'm sure - as if I would an actual proposal. Give or take a few moments of epic failure or epic win, the fact remains that I have officially given you that promise I made in the form of these bands; the one you have dangling from your neck.

It's not a simple thing to confess... But I'm pretty sure that it surpasses any and all romantic, cheesy and mushy moments I may have committed without my own knowledge.

Someone has stalking talent.

^________^

I have got to admit, that is really one nice picture, Mitsu.

Who took that?

Or do you have stalker abilities that I should know about?

*chuckle*

I'll find out soon enough.

But for now I think I'll go back to typing up that chapter about your baby pictures.

Look what I found...

I was browsing through some pictures I saved here on my laptop and I stumbled upon something quite interesting.... This brings back some memories.

Wouldn't you agree, Syusuke? Quite the 'divine' photo-op.

Perhaps Only to Me

I never want to make the mistake of letting go of your hand for even just a little bit again, Syusuke. Any shortcomings I may have made known were the cause of why I became so confused myself. But I'm heartily grateful that despite all that, you remained to believe firmly that we can make this our own.

As such, I don't think I can find any more reason to tell anybody else just how much you mean to me anymore. I love you relentlessly and will continue doing so until my dying day.

So let anyone who dares to intervene come. We will show to them that we can overcome absolutely any obstacle together, Syusuke.

I've come to a peace of mind and I can move on from the past, even if the progress will be a little slow. But rest assured, love... We won't have to see face of that cycle any longer. I'll personally see to that.

A post that makes no sense whatsoever.

I held on to you because I was so afraid that if I let go, I would hear something I would dread that would cause you to walk out of my life.

I love you so much Kunimitsu......and letting you go would kill me.

The mere thought of it was enough for me to break down and hold on to you helplessly, at a lost for anything else to say or think.

It became instinct, that time....to just reach out for you, to keep you beside me...with me.

I was desperate, I was confused...and most of all, I was afraid.

Kunimitsu...no words can explain how much I love you anymore.

I meant everything that I said earlier as I held on to you....

They can ask anything of me just....just as long as it's not to leave you...

Of course

Of course I'll be updating as well, Mitsu.

After all, I didn't put that teaser there for nothing

Update

So I decided to update my journal again (Things I Want to Know). Just a short entry this time around, but for sure when I have more time, I'll make more updates.

Syusuke, you'll be updating more as well, right?

At Ease

I enjoyed these past few days seeing you, Syusuke. I've been able to be a little more at ease about a few things.

I guess it's a good way to compensate for the next few Saturdays we'll be unable to meet, ne?

Hopefully my hand will stop swelling so I can hold a racket again by next week. Holding a ballpen without trouble would be nice, too. I have two midterms coming next week as well. Wish me luck.

Bad days

Yes, I've been having a lot of bad days lately.

Now I know they were meant to be bad days and not just coincidential bad days.

It's so hard when people you trust starts turning their backs on you.

Flares

Tempers can get the better of you when you let them. So the best way to handle them is by avoiding it. Cool yourself off and change the subject of conversation. It helps cut the tension amidst the group.

Will our regular plans continue, Syusuke? Or perhaps you'd like me to arrange a tennis session tomorrow afternoon?

Yes

I'd have to say that it holds some truth, those results are.

And Syusuke....

I'll be the first to say it lest I forget:

HAPPY 9TH MONTHSARY!

Personality Test Results

We have one of these ever school year and I'd like to share my results for this SY. Think it's accurate?

1. Concrete thinker/ Practical Thinker
2. Emotionally changeable/ Moody
3. Sensitive
4. Skeptical
5. Imaginative
6. Non-disclosing/ Tends to keep things to self
7. Apprehensive
8. Shy
9. Self Reliant
10. Tolerates Disorder

Ummm

White Chocolate would be nice, but I'll take whatever is available as long as it isn't dark.

Reply

>______>

Say so earlier... That way I can buy some in school to give it to you when we meet.

Sometime this week, then. Any particular chocolate you're looking for? Milk? White? Dark?

Asking

*clears throat*

While I'm not really that used to asking people for things that I crave...

*looks at you and smiles brightly*

Can you give me some chocolate, Kunimitsu?

Response

Of course that's not a good idea. I'm not allowing you to spend time with people for it when I can purchase some for you myself. Just ask.

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Chocolate

For some strange reason I've been craving for these things for quite some time now but due to some monetary problems I am yet to acquire a chocolate bar.

I'm thinking about posting something along the lines of "Will spend spend time with people for chocolate" on our freedom board.

What do you think, Mitsu?

Driver's License

So I got my driver's license today....

And I'm the only one who actually has class to attend tomorrow morning... Perhaps my parents would allow me to take a car on my own without overly worrying about anything...

*adjusts glasses*

We'll see what happens.

A Busy Day

It's roughly 5 in the afternoon right now and I find myself still in the confines of the university at this time of the day. My reason for staying here is simple: I still have to attend to my club session this evening at 6:30.

I was just given my allowance for today, and I only had two classes to attend; my 7:30-9, and 9-10:30. I had originally thought I had nothing more to do afterwards, but realized that I had to attend a group session on my Saturday insertions to a particular area at 3 in the afternoon. With much time to spare, I decided to inform Syusuke about this and we agreed to meet up for lunch during his break before his Advertising class.

During my walk to Seishun, I was uniquely surprised to already see him waiting for me, sitting down on one of the benches when I walked up to him. After realizing that he had left me a few messages on my phone during my walk, we headed off to our eating place.

Having much time to spend while we were there, Syusuke and I decided to discuss a few things about our various roleplays; finalizing ideas and throwing together a few scenes that would entertain us both, as well as our readers.

We ended up walking back to Seishun and parted ways before I returned to my own university to spend some time back here in the open lab until 3 in the afternoon where I met with my groupmates to discuss our insertions.

And now I've returned once again here to pass the time before I head off to the tennis courts. I'm glad to see that the weather looks good for an evening session.

There won't be any classes for me tomorrow, but my day is still unplanned for the most part. It actually depends on my father's schedule. Hopefully I'll be able to get my license, so... fingers crossed?

*shrugs*

Number 10

Syusuke forgot something very important in that list of his.

10. You have to be Fuji Syusuke.

That is all.

*bows*

9 Things to remember if you want to date Tezuka Kunimitsu

Here's the list that some people are asking for...and no..don't ask me to elaborate.

1. You have to understand that he isn't perfect.
2. You have to realize that he isn't a fairytale character that will just sweep you off your feet as well.
3. You have to be comfortable with lengthy silences.
4. Don't expect too much mushyness
5. Don't demand for them either.
6. Tennis is something that you will NEVER get out of his system
7. If you don't know what he's talking about it would be better if you look it up than just sit there and wait for him to tell you what it is.
8. In times of trouble, take the initiative to talk. Don't expect him to just notice that there's something wrong
9. Learn a sport or two. While it's nice to let him teach you, it's much better to actually play against/with him it gives you "brownie points".

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"Somethin' in your eyes, makes me wanna lose myself
Makes me wanna lose myself, in your arms
There's somethin' in your voice, makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts, the rest of my life

If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I've been so alone
And if you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

A window breaks, down a long, dark street
And a siren wails in the night
But I'm alright, 'cause I have you here with me
And I can almost see, through the dark there is light

Well, if you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I've waited for your touch
And if you knew how happy you are making me
I never thought that I'd love anyone so much

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way the back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong"

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Excuse the mushyness that this post implies.

Mitsu...seems like I have found another song that says all that I want to tell you.

Quoting Junjou

I was watching some Junjou Romantica (well, Egoist to be more precise) this morning and one line in particular clenched at my heart.

.......Syusuke...

These are a few of the many lines I want to borrow from this anime that I want to express wholeheartedly to you....

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"But I can tell you one thing - there's no one in this world I could ever love more than I love you." (anime) - Nowaki to Hiroki, episode 6

"But I know that there's no one that I'll love more than you, Hiro-san." (manga) - Nowaki to Hiroki, Vol. 2 Ch 002, pg 103

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"Is there a limit to how much you can love somebody? No matter how much I hurt him and get hurt by him, I find myself, far from hating him, actually hoping that those wounds will scar, like burns... because then you can never forget me. And you will never, ever be able to leave my side. Loving someone so madly and helplessly like this... I will never love like this again." (anime) - Hiroki's thoughts, episode 6

"Are there any limits to the emotion called 'Love'? Hurting others... and even getting hurt yourself... Rather than succumbing to hatred... It's better yet to... leave a scar much like a burn mark. That way you'll never be able to forget me. Go live merciless of the strength to tear yourself away from me. Loving someone so much... just so much... Never again will I ever experience this kind of love." (manga) - Hiroki's thoughts, Vol. 2 Ch 002, pgs 109, 110 and 111

That's great!

And just so you know, it was supposed to be Momo that I'll be watching the movie with.

Unfortunately, he had informed me that he caught a cold and is now feeling out of it so...

^_________^;;

I guess I'll be watching on my own tomorrow.

Another Saturday

Syusuke and I managed to spend another Saturday afternoon in each other's company. I had originally intended for us to play some badminton together, but there were a few minor setbacks that made me think of rescheduling it to next weekend instead.

I'm thankful that we managed to meet up quite a number of times this past week, though I do regret not being able to watch a particular movie that he's required to watch by Tuesday. I believe he'll be watching it on Monday with a friend of his, if I recall.

Spending an afternoon playing with the Wii was a nice way to pass the time, I believe. I never realized how competetive my boyfriend can be when it comes to Wii Bowling. *shrugs*

Because our landline wasn't working, we had to go to the gate of my subdivision to get a taxi for Syusuke, so I suggested that I take one of the cars so I could practice driving a bit more. Upon Syusuke's suggestion, I took a drive around before finally parking it and accompanying him to hail a taxi, which we found pretty quickly.

I'll be getting my driver's license this Friday for sure. I actually might already have an opportunity to bring Syusuke home myself earlier than I expect.

Fatigue

*flexes fingers of left hand*

Ow...

I'm beginning to think how much of a bad idea it is combining badminton and tennis. I may have just gotten used to the weight of a badminton racket to be overwhelmed with the sudden weight of the tennis racket last night. And I'll have them both on Monday again. What a joy that will be (*sarcasm intended*).

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That aside... I have a free cut from my 2:30 class, so now I'm contemplating what to do until I attend yet another GA for one of my school organizations.

Well... to be honest, I was hoping to meet with Syusuke, but he overworked himself late into the night last night so I understand his reasons for declining.

I hope you get your fatigue back up, Syusuke. We may be needing it tomorrow. Yes, you and I both.

Announcement

As I keep reminding you time and again, I don't think there's much need for you to get completely jealous over things, Syusuke. It's a waste sometimes. But that out of the way, I think it's about time I write a decent blog entry in this blog of ours. Just a short one to save everyone the trouble.

So I stopped writing journal entries for the time being (on Things I Want to Know)... simply because I honestly find no more use to type up a precariously long entry about a certain event when I can do just the same here with a bit more discretion that I'd very much appreciate.

Despite the workload in university, I think I'd like to dedicate some time with keeping up with said schoolwork, and just spend some time chatting with Syusuke and read that manga I've become so intrigued by (Junjou Romantica). If possible, scheduling some possible afternoons to spend with him is a plus, since the org I'm in is constantly asking me to get involved, and the tennis club is not making things any easier with the planning.

I'll have to get used to a Monday and Thursday meeting with said club. I haven't even had the chance to take out my tennis racket and hit a few balls around on the court these days thanks to the unpredictable weather. I would hope Thursday comes to be a better evening for play. For now, I'll make do with looking forward to meeting with Syusuke after his Advertising class.

Jealousy

A few people might not know about it yet, but I'm a person who can easily get jealous over the simplest things, be it trivial or insignificant.

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I have no idea why, though...

But anyway, yes I am currently jealous over something/someone but I'll leave people to figure it out.

And no...

No clues this time.

Sleep

Today, I spent most of my time sleeping.

Waking up at around 12 in the afternoon I joined my family to eat lunch and in a few minutes time after that I fell asleep again and woke up at around 6...

From that hour onwards I was as awake as a person would be in the day time.

Unfortunately I will have to suffer this insomnia phase alone.

I hate your internet, Mitsu...almost as much as I hate mine.

Almost a week

If memory serves me correctly.... My beloved Syusuke and I haven't seen each other since last Saturday when he came over to the house after his class. We spent some good time together, and I was only more than happy in being able to spend time with him.

As the week progressed this time around, there wasn't a minute that when I was alone I wouldn't be thinking of him... Of how I missed to just hold his hand... stroke his hair... and generally just be able to touch him...

And whether or not I took it upon myself to be reading the manga he referred me to - to which I read it in my spare time when I'm able to - it only reminds me of how much I want to be with him; to see his face and to hold him.

Tomorrow... he and I will see each other again. It's what I've been craving to do since the past week...

On Junjou Romantica

Syusuke...

I was debating whether to share this or not... But a blockmate of mine had a copy of the anime of Junjou Romantica... So I... borrowed it for a while. The opening song is quite......... interesting.

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I'll leave you with the English translation.

Don’t let go of this hand, don’t let go
Because I’ll be by your side
No matter when, smile! Smile!
The flower will bloom

The flower you like the most has bloomed
The flower with a small thorn bloomed this morning
I wonder if I should protect that thorn
The lone strong flower resembles you

The gentleness becomes as painful as I know
Because you and the warmth of your falling tears know

I want to see you, I want to see you
If it gets lonely even when the two of us are together
Let’s hold hands until the loneliness disappears
Don’t let go of this hand, don’t let go
Because I will be by your side
No matter when, smile! Smile!
The flower will bloom

If you send a smile to a star somewhere
Just looking up at the sky makes me happy

Even trivial things become precious to me
Because the flower that is you bloomed in my heart

I want to see you, I want to see you
If it gets as lonely even when the two of us are together
Let’s hold hands until the loneliness disappears
Don’t let go of this hand, don’t let go
I will be by your side
No matter when, smile! You can cry, because
I’m with you

If there’s no water, it will wither, so
that thorn can’t protect anything at all
It’s the lone strong flower
The thorn doesn’t hurt, so don’t cry anymore

I won’t let go of this hand, Won’t let go
If it gets as lonely even when the two of us are together
Let’s hold hands until the loneliness disappears
Even if that small thorn hurts my hand

Walking in the Rain

I found myself doing it when I was walking down the street of my subdivision... It was just a light drizzle and I was nearly home... So I didn't think too much about it and pulled my umbrella from above me and let the soft raindrops reach me, allowing them to hit my face.

I was listening to some music off my iPod... And the song that was playing as I turned into my street was an English song... Savage Garden's 'Truly, Madly, Deeply' song. I believe I found myself singing along to it. And as I subconsciously thought about Syusuke... I started to tear up slightly.

Syusuke.

The ambience of the rain... and the message of the song I was listening to...

I don't want it to be a sign of any sort.

I want to spend the rest of forever with you by my side.

Always....

Out of Ideas

I should applaud you for finding a manga that actually captures the constant shift in our relationship, Syusuke. Even I was surprised when I read your blog entry.... And I can't help agreeing that in some ways, that particular manga is right on the money... for the relationship bit.

Moving on, I am finding difficulty with coming up with somethign new to write about for my latest journal. It's truly been a while and I am feeling quite irritated that I haven't been updating...

Any ideas?

My First actual blog entry~

First I would like to direct you to these two pages of the manga "Junjou Romantica".

In the First page there I'd like you to look at the last three panels and for the second page, the first two panels.

These parts of this certain chapter struck me so hard that it made me wake up in the middle of the night.

My intention was to read the chapter before I go to sleep, I thought it wouldn't be long until I gave up anyway since my eyes were closing and I was already feeling sleep slowly claim me. Yet, the moment that I read those lines I found my eyes snapping open and by brain fully alert and awake.

I read the lines again and again, realization sinking in at each turn.

"These were similar, if not the exact, same lines that my Kunimitsu told me a few months back"

It's such a great coincidence that the exact same name our antagonist had back then was "Takahiro", I guess.

But when I realized all this I went back a few pages and found myself a bit more shocked (and a bit creeped out) when I read the story behind the character Misaki, the one the other (Usagi) was hugging:

Takahiro (Misaki's brother) was talking to Usagi about how their parents died. It appears that Misaki has been blaming himself for their parents death.(Their parents died in a car crash because of over-speeding, Misaki blamed himself because previous to that he had asked his parents to hurry home.)

And then this exchange happens:



It revealed that the character was giving a front to everyone else. A front that crumbled down when he is in front of Usagi , as revealed in the previous chapters.

We're just the same...

That was the first thing that came to mind the moment that I read that certain page. I, just like Misaki, had learned to put up a front when dealing to harsh realities and seldom does it happen that people see through it...that was until a special someone came.

And throughout every hardship we have been through he has been like Usagi, never letting go...fighting on for what we have.

-^_____________^-

The mere thought of it all is making me quite giddy....

Long story short, This manga: "Junjou Romantica" has made me feel grateful toward my beloved once again. It also reminded me how much I love him despite the fact that my brain wasn't supposed to be able to proses anything more than 'zzzzzz'.

Yes, love is that powerful. *chuckle* It strikes subtly yet its effect is overwhelming.

Well, I guess I'm due to go to sleep now since it's already 1:21 in the morning.

Good Night all~

*cuddles pillow*

I agree with that.

Yes, please. Get a license as soon as you can.

It'll make some things easier for us since I don't think Yumiko-neesan has any intention of letting me use the car on my own.

Saa...I wonder why they still don't trust me driving skills...

On a random note..I haven't been posting anywhere, have I?

I should really do something about that. Especially for the blog we're required to have.

Do you think RPG is a good topic, Mitsu?

Driving

I really should find time to get my license already... It'll become tiresome to just go around the subdivision time and again...

*adjusts glasses*

Also... I shall direct you to a previous quote that I let slip last Wednesday: "I'm off balance again."

I'll leave the rest of our viewers to figure that out.

Ah yes...

That's quite true.

So that explains why I don't stray off in crowded places and other things.

*chuckle*

I can't imagine straying from you anyway, love.

For your information...

My 'Tezuka Zone' doesn't control your emotions towards me. It just doesn't allow you to stray away from amidst its radius. I'd be insulted if you thought it was the reason why you're with me....

So that explains it...

Now I know what to blame for my unexplainable attraction for you.

Tezuka zone, I see...

And here I was thinking that it was your charisma that was drawing me to you.

That....

...is overrated. Those animators obviously want to exaggerate more than they need to when it comes to my techniques.

*sighs*

And I'm surprised you didn't realize that you've been pulled into my 'Tezuka Zone' for nearly 8 months now, Syusuke.

O___O

You mean you don't care that you killed off those adorable dinosaurs?

unless....you're using your Tezuka zone for something else.

^______________^#

And...?

Are you quite sure I haven't already been harnessing it, Syusuke?

*raises an eyebrow*

Tsk Tsk Tsk....

This is one reason why you should learn to harness the power of "Tezuka Zone" a bit more, Kunimitsu.

I did think of it that way before..

^____________________________^

I'm just generally happy now that things have taken a turn for the better.

Now to find a way to turn the tables more often...

-///////////////////-

Syusuke...

Just so you know...

That ring I gave you... May have more symbolism than what I originally intended it to have... I hope that much is clear...

I'll always love you... and will stay with you.

Always.

Oh Kunimitsu... -^______^-

You don't have to ask that of me because no matter what happens I will always trust you.

And I will always always ALWAYS love you unconditionally. Though I may get mad over the silliest things sometimes, always bear in mind that I love you so so much.

You'll always be my adorable, huggable, lovable darling.

^________^

That won't happen

I wouldn't dream of getting rid of you, Syusuke. I may have made a few mistakes, but I know for a fact taht I won't be leaving you for as long as I care to.

I can only ask you to trust me.... as you always have.... to love me as much as you always have.

Here to stay

You'll be glad to hear that everything worked out in the end.

I came back as I promised, Kunimitsu. And this time I can proudly say that I'm here to stay until you decide that you want to get rid of me.

Still Waiting

I'll always be waiting, Syusuke.

I completely trust you... And I do hope you come back just as you promised you would.

I LOVE YOU. More than you ever know.

We'll grit our teeth and make our own futures happen.

About Today

So yes, I have to admit I had quite a crappy start to my day, but that date totally turned things around for me.

I had a great time with you, something we haven't done in a while, actually.

I wish we had more time to spend together, though.

I'm glad that you liked the outfit, I'm sure someone would be delighted to hear that too.

I'm also very thankful that you brought me home and shared a romantic moment with me under the rain.

Oh Look, Mitsu...we finally have our own rain scene.

^________________________________^

A Good Day

I seem to have lost track of the last time you and I had a proper date, Syusuke... But at least things worked well earlier today, wouldn't you agree? I had a grand time, though I must admit you looked stellar in your outfit.

*adjusts glasses*

I'll also thank you for allowing me to escort you home this time. I just want to personally make sure nothing bad happens, that's all...

I love you, and I look forward to spending time with you again real soon.

I love you

I know we throw that around quite often when we bid good night to one another, but when the situation calls for it that we must say it to put the point across, then do not hesitate.

Love is powerful in its own way, isn't it?

Those three words, when spoken at the right time, will produce such wonderful results. Don't you agree?

Just wanted to share...

I placed this in my blog as well, but I thought I'd share this with you here as well, Syusuke. I'm sure the lyrics are self-explanatory when taken as a whole. The artist is Karen Carpenter with the song title 'You'.

You are the one who makes me happy

When everything else turns to gray

Yours is the voice that wakes me mornings

And sends me out into the day

You are the crowd that sits quiet list'ning to me

And all the mad sense I make

You are one of the few things worth remembering

And since it's all true, how could anyone mean more to me than you.

Sorry if sometimes I look past you

There's no one beyond your eyes

Inside my head the wheels are turning

Hey sometimes I'm not so wise

You are my heart and my soul, my inspiration

Just like the old love song goes

You are one of the few things worth remembering

And since it's all true, how could anyone mean more to me than you

You are my heart and my soul, my inspiration

Just like the old love song goes

You are one of the few things worth remembering...

And since it's all true, how could anyone mean more to me than you.

So I noticed...

*adjusts glasses*

I will find other fitting pictures to display, Syusuke.

But for now, I believe I would want to deviate attention from this to something a little bit more trivial.

Say.... looking for more ideas for the roleplays?

As response to that...

I shall direct you to the snapshot section of our blog.

^________________^

Syusuke...

Need I inquire where you're storing all those photos?

Even I don't know about them. -____-||

But worry not. I have my own collection as well. Perhaps I'll post them another time.

*adjusts glasses*

Since I am bored

I shall post some random things.

^____________^

First of! the Casual Collection. (You should wear these more often)









And I seem to have found one from the formal wear section:



And how could I forget the School Uniform?











And of course the "Tezuka in his Jersey" shots:





And here's one of my personal favorites





Aren't they great?

^_________^

TAU

To some it may just be an acronym of this blog, but there's also a reason why I picked that title.

In a certain language it can be read as "Tayo" which means "us". And that's how things are now, right. It's always "us". Neither is really alone even when it seems like it.

I know you're worried about me, Mitsu and believe me that I am slightly worried about everything to.

But I'll be careful tomorrow, I promise. I won't let my sickness tie me down and be the cause of weakness.

Alright?

So please don't worry about it too much, love.

I'm just worried

I know you can handle your own, Syusuke, but the fact of the matter is, I'm more worried than I can say. For the third time, I feel so powerless being unable to physically be around to ensure your safety... I'm annoyed at myself because of it.

As much as my heart is aching at leaving you alone to deal with these problems... I will put my trust in you.

That's not...

That's completely off-topic, Syusuke...

-///////-

*clears throat*

And since when have you been embarrassed to admit a few things to me? I honestly find that strange.

To go off-topic for a minute, I would like to point out that I am still in the dark as to the identity of our Physics Lab professor.

-________-

*chuckles*

Don't feel bad, Mitsu. It's alright.

Now we'll just have to find someways to make some more memories to override what has happened, right?

I wonder what we could do...

How about looking at this, then?



Aren't you the cutest thing?

*looks away*

I didn't intend to make you feel guilty about it...

Even I find it frustrating at times and sometimes wish I had approached it differently. But I guess it's the one thing that will continue making both of us ponder too much on it once the topic arises. So let's just try our best to override it with something else.

A powerful, a very happy memory to overlap it, hopefully.

Hmmm...

Saa..you're just making me feel guilty right now for not being able to adapt back then. But please understand that it wasn't an easy situation for me at all..

To be honest, the memory itself is enough to push me to tears up to this day. It something that would always hurt everytime I would look back into it.

I admit, that what we have been through has been my fault and happened because of my shortcomings when it came to this relationship.

I understand, Mitsu.

I understand why it happened and it kills me just thinking about it. Especially now that I see what was the back story of it all.

It's frustrating, annoying, disappointing and depressing.

Restless Sleep

Despite the 'order' given to me by my mother to retire to bed (after experiencing two days of traffic), lying in bed amidst the darkness did not allow me to wisk away too quickly to dreamland. Thoughts and ideas were bouncing about my head even as I closed my eyes. Such thoughts and ideas are what kept me up for at least half an hour or more before I was finally able ot settle into quiet slumber.

Syusuke... You have been a witness time and again to my constant indecision on things. At times you were hurt by my decisions or just couldn't fully adapt to them enough to allow us to call such a decision a good decision. We're constantly on edge.

But it's nothing to worry ourselves over for now. I'll continue making observations for the time being and hope we can arrive at a point where we don't need to be worried about my indecision.

You'll be glad to know...

I spent my entire day sleeping up to now. 

I just woke up to eat and then went back to sleep. Saa...now that I think of it, I might have a hard time getting sleepy tonight. 

Unless a little kitten decides that I should still sleep early, that is.

^________^

You know...

It's comforting to know that at least you won't be pushing yourself to do things, Syusuke. That'll be enough for the time being.

While I have time before my next class, I might as well stop over and remind you to rest. The weather around here is hectic with the heavy downpour of rain only minutes ago. I've seen quite a number of freshmen moving around campus (I already spotted an underclassman of mine from Seishun High earlier), and thankfully they're not as lost as they should be with the absence of a proper tour.

I will only hope that you are resting up alright and will look forward to chatting with you as our usual practice this evening. I will only hope that nobody else from the regulars will needlessly bother me over certain things. Kikumaru was thankfully the only one I managed to talk to yesterday. I do not want to be hounded by the rest of them and made fun of else they'll be off running laps.

-_________-||

I will apologize as well for staying late last night past the time I allotted myself to get to bed for the first day today. There's only one reason for that, which I'm sure you're well aware of. I am stubborn for so many reasons, and this is probably one of them. Forgive me for that and I hope that you will just be able to overlook it while I sort things out.

Aww..

This is one of the things that I love about you, Mitsu. You're able to show so much love and concern with a few sentences.

How the regulars would faint and how Inui would pay anything to record that.

^_____________^

I'll take good care of myself, I promise. So don't let your mind side-track tomorrow on your first day of classes for the semester, alright?

I figured

You should focus on recouperating as quick as you can, then. Don't strain yourself and give yourself more trouble and just REST. We will have plenty of other chances to see each other this semester.

Remember, Syusuke... Everything will be pointless if you force yourself to do things. We're in a time and age when people are going ballistic over people who are sick.

Stay at home, stay in bed and just rest.

Happy? You might mean ecstatic

The regulars would be totally excited once they find out about that certain car, Mitsu.

After all, I'm sure they put that in their chapter out of pure fancy and whatnot.

Setting that aside. I might not be able to meet up with you tomorrow. I have a slight cold today and I'm taking necessary precautions since the teachers wouldn't let those with colds even enter the rooms.

^_______^;;

I know, Syusuke

Then don't. Nobody's forcing you to think things in that manner. Things will be fine.

We'll take care of the little kitten. That's for sure.

And another thing. The rest of the Regulars should be happy to know that my family does own a black car I could possibly be allowed to drive when I get my license already.

-___________-

That's scary

Mitsu, I don't really want to visualize what could happen if things DID follow exactly what we wrote. Our imagination scares me...

The events that we went through were pretty harsh as it is. I don't really want anything harsher. Especially in my position right now.

We don't want anything happening to the little kitten now, do we?

^____________________^

Now that I think about it...

With so many doubts in my mind through it all, we did get through all the hurdles we've encountered... This won't be any different.

Besides...

*adjusts glasses*

If things, in one way or another, follow the roleplay we do...

*knocks on wood*

(though not to the extent of actually doing what we've described )

Then things will be alright. We'll be alright.

I never left your side anyway...

No matter how it may have seem like it, Mitsu, I have never left your side.

I always held on to us and what we have, believing that we'll get through whatever we are up against as long as we are together.

Don't worry, love. We've been through a lot.

We made it before and we most definitly will make it now.

Decisions

I need to get this off my chest, Syusuke...

I called you up and we spoke about it late last night, I know. And I apologize that you... had to hear those things from me of all people.

But... I definitely don't want to keep things from you any longer, Syusuke.

Because of that... I want to make sure that we get through this hurdle once more together. Let's not leave one another behind anymore.

Just trust me on it. We'll get through it all.

Ah yes..that.

Of course I know what the widget is for, after all it's not blatantly placed there, isn't it?

^_________^

And don't worry so much, Mitsu. I'm not letting my guard down.

Hmm...I'm getting hungry..maybe I should get something to eat.

*points to new widget*

I figured you'd be interested to know I've added that for the blog...

I'm assuming you, being the genius you are, know what it's counting down to.

*adjusts glasses*

And if memory serves, your 3pm class is your Journalism class with... him, correct?

Don't let your guard down when you're in Seigaku, Syusuke.

The Joys of Internet

Yes, Kunimitsu. I did go to school today and I am currently at Seigaku's internet center.

It's kinda nice to have easy access, don't you think?

Anyway. I have a class at around 3 and it's only 1:50 here so....fun fun fun.

^____^

At Home Once Again

There really isn't much to do when you're at home.....

If I had my way, I'd already drag someone off to the Sports Club and play a match with them...

-________-

*adjusts glasses*

Well, today, at least, I have my cousin Ikari-kun coming over today to spend the day here as he has nothing else to busy himself with at his house. It'll give me something to distract myself from the computer the rest of the day, I suppose.

By now, Syusuke should be in class already... assuming he went to school today.

*sighs*

Oh well. We'll find out this evening.

If You Say So

Alright, fine.

But if the rest of the Regulars and Rokkaku start going out of line with requests or what not, I won't hesitate to make them run laps.

And I'm not all that particular with blog layouts. What's more important is the content, anyway. For me, at least.

It won't be that bad

Look on the bright side, Mitsu. At least now we'll be able to actually interact with the people who support us.

After all, we pretty much owe it to them as to why we ended up this far, don't we?

^_______^

And if the layout (the seaside sunset) unsettles you so much, feel free to change it as you please.

It's also your blog.

Blogging

You didn't have to indicate that (Fuji Post 1) as your title, Syusuke. People will find out who wrote the entry one way or another. But I guess we can let it slide for the time being.

I agree with you that this blog idea Masato-sensei pointed out is actually a bit more interactive than our TYDK and TIWtK chapters, so we're able to express a few more things more efficiently and up-to-date as compared to those.

*adjusts glasses*

And why wouldn't I agree with this idea, Syusuke? I've already gone 60+ chapters into TIWtK, so you would at least give me the benefit of the doubt that I would be willing to do something like this...

As for the layout.......

Does it really have to be like this? The ambiance is a little... unsettling, despite it being artistic. But if you picked it, I'm fine by it, Syusuke.

.......

I just realized that by blogging, people would find out I actually have a lot of things to actually point out more than I would actually say out loud. We're doomed.

-_______-|||

Fuji Post 1

Saa, I think this blog is a good idea. I can now freely say and react to what I usually don't say in TYDK

*chuckle*

I do hope Kunimitsu agrees with the idea though, after all, there's still a chance that he won't.

So let's see...I guess this is something that is more interactive than the chapters that I publish out there and that makes everything more fun.

Hmm..

Kunimitsu, what do you think of the layout? I picked it myself.